I'm still struggling to survive in this world.

No way out?

2011-12-18T00:57:00.003+08:00

What had been done cannot be undone. But all the commitments are suffocating me. I need a break. A long one. I miss my friends.

Coming back

2011-10-05T03:55:00.001+08:00

School reopens on Thursday. Not gonna sigh and grumble why holiday ended. Just going to do my best and pull up my darn GPA! With my current GPA, my future is bleak. Enough of fun and it's time to work hard. Just got to make things do. Hope it's not too late.

Please hang on no matter what!!!!

Secretly

2011-10-03T03:59:00.001+08:00

You made my heart fluttered by doing nothing. Smiled sillily at the thought of you. You have the charm. You do know spells, don't you? I want you. But I'm not going to blindly fall in. Be rational. We're going to be stranger. We won't have a future.

I'm cool. No tears, no pain. Just wanna thank you for making my heart pound again. Bye(:

A promise made to myself.
If one day, we will to meet and become friends. That's the day, I confess.

Insignificant action. Significant hurt.

2011-07-14T00:57:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry.

You are not forgotten, just that I'm afraid of rejection.

Moments like this

2011-06-07T23:13:00.007+08:00

I know being emotional and grumpy is a major turn off for everyone and it definitely can put people off. But I really need a space to vent my emotions. Holiday is always the time I reflect and think a whole lot more. Frankly, it leads me to no where but I just can't stop myself from thinking. And, all these never fail to ruin my mood. I feel so much lonelier. My heart feels empty. I learnt that filling empty heart with unrealistic matter make it even worse. I know I want to be someone successful but I don't even know what am I going to do after polytechnic. I don't even know what is my ambition and interest. I want to do better but I just can't find my stepping stones. Moments in life that I thought, yes let this continue on and the next thing I know is, it ended. Not knowing what I can do, areas which I can excel in can be so devastating and disheartening. Scrolling through the contacts in my phone wanting to find a friend to pour out my feelings to and realising there's none I could really open myself to. It's made me reflect even more, asking myself what have I been doing for the past 18 years of my life which leads me to this state. There're times where I really feel like ending this life and begin with another. I no longer blame reality, fate and life. Cause I know I'm the one that made all the decisions and I'm the one who take charge of my own life. I'm also the one that's suppose to colour my own life.

Unforgettable

2011-04-27T16:30:00.002+08:00

I had lost a significant amount of friends along my way. Friends who I'm not exactly close with and there are those who I thought would be there with me for life. Recalling all those times together, it's hilarious how close we used to be and now awkwardness is felt between us. I really find it a pity but I know our friendship can never be salvage now. It's too late. But, I'm happy that it ever happened once. I would just say bye bye.

Past makes present

2011-03-10T03:48:00.002+08:00

Often in life, we're given a chance to choose. One wrong steps leads to dire consequences that screwed up your life. You got no choice but to get your life back on track despite the oncoming uncertainty and doubts. You get encouragement and criticism from onlookers not bothering whether you needs it or not. Family, friends by your side. Yes, always only being by your side and not you. No one would know exactly how you feel even though they had been through. After all, each and everyone of us are unique individual. We just got to face it and learn how to do things right in our own unique way. Once things are done, you're back to normal. A new, much better person than before. Things that don't kill you make you stronger. The 'wrong' before resulted in the 'right' now. The changes in you through the progress isn't someone you thought you are? You didn't want to be someone like that? Now, you complicated things, have doubts in everything, distrust of people, selfish, too rational? You never dare to take any risks to follow your dreams? Being glad as long as life stays this way?

My life made me changed and I really dislike me.

Useless bum

2011-01-25T22:15:00.002+08:00

- I know what I'm studying now isn't what I want and love.

- I'm not good at what I'm studying now.

- I don't hundred of thousand to realise my dreams.

- There's nothing I can do except for continuing this path I'm taking.

- Perhaps I'm lacking of a little courage too.

- I'm a useless bum.

Moving

2011-01-17T20:56:00.003+08:00

Xylia♥

I love myself! I look so slim and my eyes is huge.

First post of 2011.

It's all crap

2010-12-29T01:10:00.003+08:00

Lesson learned.

Always put yourself in the first place because no one else is going to do that.

At the end of the day, you would realise you face everything alone.

Make a wish

2010-11-23T01:54:00.002+08:00

I want a better life.

Help

2010-11-19T01:16:00.002+08:00

It has been weeks ever since I started crying myself to sleep every single night. Diverting my attention just make me feel worse. Feeling totally crappy every passing second of my life. Yet, I still got to behave like everything is fine. Classmates making everything much worse. I'm not invisible! Everything is screwed up. I wish I knew how to smile genuinely.

It really do kill

2010-11-18T03:09:00.003+08:00

It's not comfortable.

It hurts.

But girls would die for this because it's just too gorgeous!♥

There's always a question mark

2010-11-14T23:44:00.003+08:00

Love hurts. Boys lies. Friends cry. People die. Parents yell. You always try. You're never good enough and you don't know why.

Truth hurts

2010-11-11T23:38:00.003+08:00

Men are one of the scariest monsters on earth. They are great liars, cheaters, too proud and they simply love too many. But when a man truly loves, he will lie in your arms, cheat death to be with you. He will forever be proud of you and love you in too many ways like no other else can do. But the sad thing is they are few.♥

Cherishing

2010-11-08T21:52:00.004+08:00

Life's too short to please everyone except yourself.

Your first mistake was leaving me. Your second mistake was giving me the chance to realise I could live without you.

Once is a mistake, twice is a fool

2010-11-08T00:23:00.005+08:00

Once again I'm thinking of taking the easy way out. But if I let you go, I'll never know how life would be holding you close to me. Will I ever see you smiling back back at me. How will I know if I let you go?

Guys act like dicks to make up for the ones they don't have. If you had tried and failed, it's clear that it's time to let go.

Love slave

2010-11-06T04:51:00.004+08:00

No matter how many times I said I don't need a guy in my life now, I know deep inside, I secretly contradict it. After all, who doesn't want to be loved. This is just a smokescreen to protect ourselves from getting hurt again. Because we know it's not simple to meet the one.

Does the value of love depreciate according to the amount used?

This isn't a cool game

2010-11-01T02:29:00.005+08:00

Are they reckless, courageous or plainly dumb? Still so into slashing?! What more it's to a extend of a life. Slashing is only cool in movies. Where no one is actually hurt, no one will get caught, it's just for entertainment.

What's wrong with them? Do you know by doing all these your parents are the one bearing all the pain, sadness and hurt. The parents' of the deceased? They got to bear the pain of losing their son. The parents' of the culprits? I doubt they would feel any better knowing their sons killed someone and soon going to be in jail.

Why settle things in a stupid/foolish way when you can settle it in a childish way? Like bad-mouthing each other on twitter? (No one is hurt, on lookers can have a good laugh about it as well) Somehow, it seems so much more mature now.

Materialistic

2010-10-23T23:18:00.004+08:00

Too pretty to resist! If you happen to chance upon this wallet, happen to have spare cash, happen to feel generous. I don't think I need to further elaborate. I'll accept it with a wide smile on my face:D

Dark Secret

2010-10-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

Sometimes in the middle of the night, your heart feels like the atmosphere of a graveyard.

Before I know

2010-10-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

I like you. I miss you. I love you.

I am getting over you.

Parent's child

2010-10-07T01:52:00.003+08:00

According to parents, we're too young for love, too old for fun, too smart to play dumb and too immature for grown up conservations. It's no wonder why teens are so rebellious. There's nothing else to do!

It's not a simple deal

2010-10-04T00:56:00.002+08:00

I want a boy who will tell me when I'm being stupid. Who won't just baby me with his words. A boy who will still give time to his friends. A boy who will tell me 'No'. He will watch stupid movies with me, but makes me watch his favourites also. A boy who's willing to drop everything to be with me, but knows when to let it be. A boy who will know he's important to me, but won't mind when I change my plans to help someone out. I want a boy who's enjoyable to look at, he doesn't have to be gorgeous. I just want someone who I can pay attention to. A boy who can make jokes about me, a boy that I can laugh with. Someone who won't mind even when I embarrass myself. A boy who will buy me something, something I would actually want, not just some jewelry. Someone who doesn't do everything I ask but when it comes to something important I can count on him to be there. Someone who I don't feel threatened by. A boy who has other friends that are girls, but I can trust him with them. A boy who I can just sit with. I don't need fairytale. I just want to feel loved and comfortable.

I never get this right

2010-10-01T01:34:00.003+08:00

True friends may not be best friends. Best friends may not be true friends. Friendship moved on as life goes on. Perhaps, i'm the one with a problem. Like you said, I'd get used to it.

Mysterious

2010-09-29T02:47:00.000+08:00

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you'll eventually learn to trust on one but yourself, and some times good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Dream and reality doesn't match

2010-09-26T01:58:00.004+08:00

I've been too demanding. Clearly known, fairytale won't happen yet expecting it too. Pinning high hopes on miracle, when it only happens once in a blue moon.

Lonely Times

2010-09-25T01:23:00.003+08:00

Sometimes you just need someone.

Someone to make you smile when you're sad.

Someone to tell you you're beautiful.

Some to look forward to seeing you everyday.

Someone to call you every night.

Someone to say I love you and mean it.

Sometimes you just need someone.

Once Again?

2010-09-20T00:22:00.003+08:00

Infatuation or Love?

I can't love like I never loved before. I can't handle another disappointment.

I just want to be happy.

Friends are the best lover ♥

2010-09-16T00:15:00.005+08:00

Who needs a boyfriend when you have crazymentallyunstabled friends!(:

Mr Right exists? I've already met Mr Player, Mr psycho, Mr Egotistical, Mr Cheap, Mr Lazy, Mr User, Mr Know-it-all and Mr Stalker. Read this on a web. Hilarious much. Hahaha

Joke

2010-09-10T03:31:00.002+08:00

I wish I didn’t watch so much trashy, romance movies because it’s giving me unrealistic expectations of the men in my life.

Peek - A - Boo

2010-09-10T03:16:00.004+08:00

Matter of fact, there's only one way. Hate the fact that I'm never gonna know what is installed for me. But I would walk down the path. I'll do what it takes to reach the end.

Life is live

2010-08-20T03:09:00.004+08:00

It's been a long time since I update this space of mine. Remember those days, when I was down, this was where I vented my emotions. And once I'm a happier person, I neglected this space. This clearly proved how ungrateful am I. But tonight is the night I decided to change for the better, so here I am again.

I has not change my mindset and thinking. What I said I still do stand by it. Nothing had changed.

I lived my life. I gained a halo and became an angel.

Girls are dumb.

2010-07-05T03:53:00.006+08:00

I believe in love, lust, sex and romance. I don't want everything to add up to the perfect equation. I want a mess and chaos. I want someone to go crazy. Out of his mind for me. I want to feel passion, heat and madness.

No matter what criteria a girl wants in a guy. At the end of the day, what she really wants is a guy that she could truly love with all her heart. And a guy that would truly love her with all his heart.

Which girl doesn't want to be happiest person on earth?!

What isn't yours, wouldn't stay.

What's yours, would come eventually.

Hectic

2010-07-01T10:26:00.002+08:00

Just because I didn't say I'm busy.

It doesn't means I'm not.

Just because I made time for you.

It doesn't means I'm free.

Just because I didn't cry.

It doesn't means I'm happy.

Just because I didn't complain.

It doesn't means I'm fine with it.

Just because I didn't talk to you.

It doesn't means I don't care.

I get irritated very easily nowadays. Friends and family isn't helping much as well. I just need a support. I know I got to apologise to a handful of people. But you just came of the wrong time to tell me about your problem. Seriously, if you girls want to continue being so so so dumb and stupid. Please leave me alone from now on. You chose this path, you deserve what you're dealing with now. I heard enough, I said enough. The problem lies with you. Why can't you just see it? There's no such thing as I love you that's why I allow you to have another girl! You allow your boy to do so. What more can you complain? Is all about you and your stupidity. And it's also you girls who are spoiling the market. I have not 1, not 2 but 3 friends belong to this category!

Just because

2010-06-11T03:30:00.008+08:00

I tend to laugh and smile when I'm with everyone, but I feel lonely and empty when I'm all alone. I cry alone when I have stress and problems. I often have many problems that are bugging me, but I never show them out on my face. I'm not as cheerful as they thought. I just don't wish to spoilt the mood of everyone, hence I hides my emotions inside. I'm just a weak human with feelings after all.

There's a lot of lies around. Everywhere.

Everyone's a hypocrite. Just admit it.

By believing you can means you can doesn't work. It's just another way to deceive ourselves.

Dream don't exist. Reality would be waiting to give you a good old slap on your face to wake you up.

I got to admit. Even if you love me with your heart, I might not reciprocate. This world is too harsh for that. I never know when you going to stab me back in the heart. There's a 'over' in every lover.

Friends don't last forever. There's a 'end' in every friendship.

Deal with it.

Eat, Drink, Play, Shopping and have FUN!

2010-06-07T01:09:00.004+08:00

Thia, you're missing again! You see the space between the two babes with two peace sign is for you.

I ♥ this photo(:

Babes, don't stress, don't emo, don't sad, don't cry!

Stay strong, Smile always:D

I'll always be there for you.

I'm weak

2010-05-04T21:57:00.004+08:00

All I want for my birthday is a trip to Bali alone. That's when I can take off my mask and clear up the mess in me right now. Hence, enjoy myself to the fullest and come back with a completely happy me.

Sometimes I really do wonder if happiness do exist. I'm not as strong as I thought I was. I don't know what am I doing right now. I clearly know what I want. But I just don't have the energy, the spirit to do it. I need a dose of happiness to keep my life running.

It's time, no more strings

2010-04-17T03:28:00.004+08:00

Deleted what I can delete.

Deleting what I can't delete.

Forgetting what is made.

Ignoring what can be seen.

Numbing any feelings that is lingering.

Changing loving to a habit.

Kicking this habit.

Living a new life.

完美并不美，我们多虚伪。

你让我的好，变成一种罪。

当你爱了谁，我的完美也只是不完美。

Missing

2010-04-14T19:16:00.004+08:00

Bought a high waist jeans but it is with someone who is currently in camp. So I got to wait till Friday before I can get it.

I love this hairstyle, Centre parting!

Love, friendship, relationship is not an investment. You might not reap what you sow! You might gain more, less or nothing, despite how much effort you put in. Perhaps, these needs more luck compare to investment.

I'm out of the game!

2010-04-09T05:22:00.003+08:00

If you're not capable of keeping your boyfriend to yourself, that is your problem. You don't just go around and bitch at anyone you saw! That made you a moron! Barking and hurling insults at someone just make you more of a loser. Perhaps it's stupidity. You clearly have no one else to blame except you and yourself! You get it?!

Liar liar, why ain't your pants on fire):

2010-03-23T03:59:00.009+08:00

#1 Sluts

Girl : You cheater, Jerk!

Guy : Listen to me, baby! Don't go! She initiated it. I know I shouldn't but trust me, I really didn't want it to happen. You are the only one I love. Please just give me a chance. It's a moment of folly. I promise this won't happen again!

#2 Society

Girl : You cheater, Jerk!

Guy : Listen to me, baby! Don't go! I'm with her just because I need her to help me with my work.But you're the most important to me! You're the love of my life, please don't leave me! I promise once my work is done, I will dump her. Trust me. I love you!

#3 Compassion / Responsibility

Girl : You cheater, Jerk!

Guy : Listen to me, baby! She is my past! You're the one I love now. It's boils down to guilt. She and her family treated me well. I do not have a choice. Please don't leave me. I need you, I love you.

#101 Memory Disorder

Girl : You cheater, Jerk!

Guy : Listen to me, baby! I don't know how these happened but it just happened. I don't know what I had been doing. I'm seriously sorry! I really love you! You're the only one I love! I promise this won't happen again.

Oh, poor thing! I pity you guys. You love your girl so much but because of certain circumstances it forced you to betray her. It's saddening! You guys selflessly keeping her by your side even though it's tough handling the situation. But some girls are just not understanding enough, they chose to leave you. It must be hard on you. Frankly, my ~~middlefinger~~heart goes out to you.

I am insanely in love♥

2010-03-13T02:17:00.002+08:00

Channing Tatum♥

He is just so HOT!

I'm crazy over him after watching Dear John. He is the man! I'm like seriously in love with him. I can't get him out of my mind. He got me addicted like heroin. I love all his movies. I love him. Just let me dream.

Happiness is an Art

2010-03-05T03:27:00.003+08:00

Work like you don't need the money.

Love like you've never been hurt.

Dance like nobody's watching.

Sing like nobody's listening.

Live like it's Heaven on Earth.

Salvage

2010-03-03T06:06:00.004+08:00

I am starting to lose faith in guys. Like seriously! Occasionally, I still do think of him. Viewing his facebook profile. Whenever he is online, I don't bear to close the window, leaving it open at the side of my screen. Perhaps it became a habit of mine. I clearly know I don't love him anymore. Okay, I'm happy for him as he found someone he love. It's time for me to move on! No more ben in my life anymore. Tonight would be the last. Before were all empty talks, but tonight is the night where I am who I am without you(: I believe I can find my happiness. Right now I don't know why my tears are rolling down again. Final and last good bye! I loved you.

Joy

2010-03-02T00:57:00.002+08:00

I went to bugis today. Wanted to get a purple ring and heels only but ended up...

Got 2 shorts, 1 toga, 1 bag.

My purple ring and heels is still in the shop):

No CNY, No Valentine

2010-02-22T05:01:00.007+08:00

I don't know what to say but all I want is to be as happy as before. Before you break my heart and left it to heal by itself. I thought I've gotten over but when I'm back at the place which carry memories of us. You certainly still have the power to meddle with my feelings. Fucked up! Although I hate myself this way, but there is nothing much I can do about it! I feel like a loser and no doubt I hate this feeling. All I hope for now, is to get over you forever and ever.

Loving you is my mistake.

Nevertheless, I still hope all of your love life blossom!

Of course, mine too:)

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Will you be my care bear♥

2010-02-11T22:54:00.005+08:00

Runaway♥

2010-02-02T16:53:00.005+08:00

Partial-ed with T.Xinyi(:

The bus we took to e!hub started to leak petrol on the highway!

So we got to change bus on highway!

Hence, we decided to take a photo on the highway!

Okay it look weird for certain reason!

Baby I just need one last night

2010-01-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

Fat Formal

2010-01-22T22:25:00.003+08:00

I am damn fat!

FAT FACE FAT BODY DAT LEGS

FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT

Time to go on a diet!

Weirdest Dream

2010-01-20T22:49:00.002+08:00

I had a weird weird dream!

This is how it goes.

I met --- somewhere, I got too upset that I took a knife and stabbed him repeatedly for a few times. He is dead. I wasn't scared. I went home to bathe and went to school. Everything was normal until my team was presenting. I wasn't too sure how but somehow one of my team mate placed his hand on my hip. Started hugging and french kissing. This dream felt so real! I am kinda scared when I woke up! I had been thinking about this dream the whole day. Is there any hidden meaning to this dream? Or it is plainly a dream?

Can I forget someone by cutting my hair?

2010-01-15T15:16:00.007+08:00

Should I cut my hair?

It's too long!

I love it but it is damn dry):

But if I cut it, my hair would be short):

If I can forget someone by cutting my hair, I am willing to do so.

But no one can guarantee that, so forget it!

Sigh.

Cut Don't cut Cut Don't cut Cut Don't cut Cut Don't cut Cut Don't cut Cut Don't cut Cut Don't cut

I am not a loser, you are!

2010-01-07T09:18:00.006+08:00

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Why can't you just disappear?

I will NEVER forgive you!

Sometime you just have to hold your head up high, blink away the tears and say goodbye.

2010-01-05T22:41:00.002+08:00

You said you love me.

You promised never to leave me.

You never fulfill your promises.

You forbade me to fulfill my promises.

You chose to abandon me in the end.

The day I leave you will be the day I'm no longer in love you with you.

The day I no longer need you.

The day I no longer think of you.

The day I won't cry anymore for you.

The day I will be happier without you.

The day my heart stop bleeding for you.

The day my heart no longer consist of you.

The day my life doesn't revolve around you.

The day my heart will stop pumping for you.

The day my heart stop skipping a beat for you.

The day I can hold my head high and no longer be the one who hides.

Emotionally hurt, Mentally exhausted, Physically worn out

♥ Merry Christmas

2009-12-24T22:33:00.004+08:00

Merry Christmas!

I want to spend my Christmas with you.

It is so difficult to spare some times?

This wish of mine can never be granted:(

Anyway, I made some Christmas card but it is still lying in my cupboard.

The cards are ugly, too embarrass to give.

Spent my Christmas eve in Xinyi's house studying.

I did study(:

I love everyone ♥

May all your wishes come true!

Can I be your one and only and will you be mine and only mine?

2009-12-21T03:37:00.006+08:00

Relationship

I had came to a decision.

No matter what, I only have me, I and myself to blame.

No one will understand how am I feeling right now.

It hurts more than a broken heart.

Friendship

I don't know whether my mood affected the way I am feeling or you had really changed?

You don't bother, you don't care anymore?

Furthermore, another one rubbing salt on my wound.

Thanks man, it will cure faster this way.

Conclusion

I am a failure!

Perhaps everyone will be happier if I am gone.

Loving you was my favourite mistake

2009-12-03T23:45:00.009+08:00

I know I need to move on but please give me more time.

Even though it has been more than a month.

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.

On the process of letting go

2009-11-30T00:47:00.006+08:00

It's hard to pretend you love someone when you don't, but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.

When I see your child like smile,

When I see your back view,

I have the urge to hug you and say baby I love you.

Frankly, I envy those who can get attached with another guy almost immediately their break up.

How they let go so easily?

Or they are just treating them as substitution?

Or am I just plain stupid?

People asking me why him?

To me he is very unique. I had never meet any guy like him before. He is knowledgeable yet ignorant. He is mature yet he behaves like a child. He is complicated yet naive. He is smart yet stupid. He is daring yet scared. Yes, that is what I love about him. Contradicting! That's why ended up breaking because he love me yet he doesn't. Stupid uh!

I hate myself for being like that.

Xylia can you just stop being so irritating!

Where is the old you?

The one who always know how to deal with your feelings?

Fuck man!

I can't let go because I love too deeply.

Even if I managed to let go, it had already engraved in my heart.

Memories will always be there till the day I die, it is unforgettable.

After all, a lesson learned.

22/11 - Got used to it

2009-11-22T22:31:00.003+08:00

I simply love my friends because they are 'cute'. Nothing is too much for me now with them around.They just brighten up my day. After chatting with them, I realised that everyone's thinking changed. It's not a bad thing after all. I learnt and gained a lot after all these:) Thanks babes! For the time being, my friends shall be my baby, dear, darling, dar, dearest, etc. I don't care whether you are willing or not! HAHA

Xinyi said that I am arrogant, I must be more considerate! The last and final point she emphasized on is 重色轻友! I believe most female will 重色轻友. I would try to change for the better!

I have an important date on 1st December 2009! I am looking forward to it!

A conclusion is simply the place where you got tired of thinking.

我会好好过，等你再爱我. (Am I doing this? I seriously don't know even if I say no.)

I am so random! Nothing link at all!

I know you love me..

19/11

2009-11-19T23:03:00.003+08:00

I am okay now!
No longer sad.
But not going to share with you my next step.
Finding a better one!
HAHAHA! (got one eye candy now)

If my love is a fairytale.
I will make it wild and crazy!

10/11

2009-11-10T18:04:00.002+08:00

Thanks.
Your I dunno and your abit really wake me up.
I swear today will be the last day I cried for you.
I am not letting myself to get hurt by you anymore.
You are nothing but a liar.
Today is definitely the last.
I don't hate you neither do I love you anymore.
We are nothing more than friends.

8/11

2009-11-08T22:22:00.003+08:00

Not crying anymore!
Ran out of tears.
I am missing you.
Had been thinking about you the whole day.
Everything single thing reminds me of you.
Your scent still lingering on my pillow.
How can I possible let go?
I am still worrying about you.
Even thought I am in no position to do that anymore.
I am still struggling right now.
Wondering if it bothers you.

6/11

2009-11-07T00:13:00.003+08:00

I am feeling fucking lost now.
I don't know what I can or should do.
I am trying to be strong.
I am fighting back my tears and sadness.
I am able to when I am with someone.
Tears start pouring out uncontrollably when I am alone.
No matter what I do it reminds me of you.
Consolatory is torment.
I needs and wants to be alone right now.
Consoling me just shows me he doesn't have to be there for me.
It hurts me more.
I used to think I can let it go easily as my love for you is not deep.
Now, I know I love you more than I knew.
Up till now, I still love you.
I am nothing but a weakling.
Nevertheless, I hope that you are happier now.
As long as you are happy, I don't mind anything.

Graph

2009-10-27T17:22:00.002+08:00

Bored

Very Bored

Super Bored

Super Duper Bored

I want to sleep

I don't want to stay anymore

Stupid me

2009-10-10T15:32:00.002+08:00

Yueming, leemay and me:)
I am trying to push the wheelchair up the slope with both of them on this.
I realised that it is a mission impossible.
I do not have the strength.

W47J

2009-10-05T21:05:00.003+08:00

New class
New faces
New working habits
I am not used to it.
I hate school because of my new class.
I love my old classmates.
I am on the verge of crying today.
When all the familiar people and stuffs are gone!
I came to realise.
Friends are harder to let go!

2009-09-25T16:22:00.002+08:00

I got cheated the first time because I was innocent.
The second time, I was naive.
If I ever get cheated for the third time, it lies down to stupidity.

Perfection

2009-09-13T02:01:00.002+08:00

What is Perfection?
Is imperfection part of perfection?
Perception takes place?

I HATE TO ADMIT THAT I AM NOT PERFECT!

I won!!

2009-09-08T00:28:00.005+08:00

I like this photo for I don't what reason!
Yes blogger finished the codes at last:))

Reply to my sweeties

T.Xinyi: Yes I want! Then let she throw the chicken. hahaha
Bibi: Okay! When we meet then I tell you:)
ym: Because blogger need it and deserve it too!
leemay: Thank you! I will take your suggestion into consideration:)

------------------------------End of Part 1----------------------------

I have a wish!
A wish that were never be fufill!

------------------------------End of Part 2----------------------------

Complaint letter

2009-09-04T01:47:00.007+08:00

Blogger is an ass!
I am elated when I saw the add Images icon.
I happily click on it and happily chose five photos.
Excitedly, I clicked on the UPLOAD IMAGE icon.
First click - nothing happened - I thought I didn't click.
Second click - still nothing happened - I thought something must must cropped up, never mind click one more time.
Third, Fourth, Fifth, Sixth, ................. clicks - It remains unchanged staring back at me!
Excuse me.
What game are you trying to play.
You forgot to write the codes for the UPLOAD IMAGE icon.
I know I sucks at programming but if you need my help tell me!
I help you figure out!
Please don't play this kind of game with me!
Do you know it is damn irritating and frustrating!
You are the one who gave me hope and take it away from me!
I am so disappointed in you!

Salvage?

2009-09-02T04:46:00.000+08:00

Blogger is jealous because I love my classmates.
Hence, he doesn't allow me to post their photos.
Nevermind!
I won't give in to you:P

Never in my life I thought I would tell someone my secret!(okay not secret but I don't know what is it called)
Somehow I just told him.
I sort of regretted it!
But its too late now:(
You better not breathe a word to anyone.
Anyway I think I got the upper hand. Hahaha
If you lips is seal, mine will be seal too!
I entrusted it to you, make sure you don't break your promise!
I still don't know why I will tell you all these!
Maybe I should stop chatting with you.
Or else everything will just come out!

beyond my touch

2009-08-21T23:48:00.000+08:00

I am not a greedy person.
All I ask for is just one chance.
What on earth did I do?
Why don't you ever let me experience it for once.
Life is just so not fair.
I tried my best.
My efforts are not rewarded.
You tell me I don't deserve it.
I believes there are millions and billions others don't even give a hook care but they got it.
I know you all going to say the emo side of me is back.
But do you all know how much I am suffering right here.
I have been suppressing all these.
Beginning happy have never been me.
I yearn for more.
The more I smile the more my heart cry.
The more I laugh the more my heart bleed.

FUCKER

2009-08-11T12:28:00.003+08:00

EXCUSE ME WHAT IS THE FUCKING PROBLEM WITH YOU
JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE
I DON'T NEED YOU
SO DON'T EVER COME TO ME AGAIN
WHO IS THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU NEED HELP
ARGH JUST GET OUT OF MY FACE
I DON'T WANT TO LISTEN TO YOUR NONSENSE
FUCK OFF YOU FUCKER

JOB

2009-08-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

I am working at explorer kid.
The job required to stand all day long.
I stand until butt cramp.
Yes, believe it.
My legs are not cramp but my butt are:(

After blues

2009-08-04T00:36:00.004+08:00

Thanks those who comfort me for the past two/three days.
Thanks a lot, I seriously appreciate it.
Yes, I love you all too<3
But recent happenings made me find out who are my true friends.
Who are the ones whom are concern about me and always be there for me.
Actually, I am quite surprised with who the people are.
So, I got lots of hypocrites as friends.
Sad to say.
So lets just forget about them!
Get on with life:)

2009-08-02T02:13:00.011+08:00

See me and enjoy seeing me:)
After waiting for 123456789 years blogger decided to let us post photos.
Thanks uh!
Even though I am still not very happy with it!
I need to attend my ah ma's funeral tomorrow which is today which is later.
I am more of scared rather than sad.
Am I heartless, emotionless, unfilial?
I am sorry!
Right now I am still awake.
It is 2:38 am.
I can sleep but I am not sleeping for I don't what reason.
I need a hug!
I need someone to be by my side to comfort me!
Perhaps I yearn to be embrace with love and happiness.
I have been deceiving myself all this while to make myself feel better.
I fabricated something that every single one of you believed except myself.
Am I just putting a brave front or is this the real me?!
I am seeking for an answer!
I believe the answer is in me but I am a coward that chose to avoid it.
I know I no longer want to hide.
The feeling is overwhelming.
I admit I pretended to be someone that is not me.
I laughed to hide my sorrow.
I smiled to hide my tears.
I am feeling so lost and empty.
Loneliness is by my side

rest in peace

2009-08-01T17:17:00.000+08:00

Ah ma do rest in peace.
Honestly, I don't really feel sad and I didn't even shed a tear over your death because we are not close.
But I hope you will be happy after you cross to another world after suffering so much.
Bye Ah ma!

your highness is not very happy

2009-07-26T13:01:00.000+08:00

Stupid blogger!!!!
You shiok then let us post photos, you not shiok then dont let us post photos.
Do you know it is super duper irritating?!
Stupid dumb dumb!

Reply to tag

to leemay: haha:) this is call unique!
to ben: i doubt you enjoy your latte!

Formal Wear:)

2009-07-23T12:10:00.007+08:00

Class Photo:)

Half Class Photo:)

Partially Class Photo:)

Quarter Class Photo

Ping Hwee.

I am not short, he is tall.

Xinyi, Mavis(faciliator)

Xinyi

Xinyi again

Nicolette

Michelle

Michelle again

Felix and Ping Hwee

Halizah, Liam, Darma

Successful Property Agents:)

Black is my style.

Yes, I wore full black because it is just so me!

Can you imagine me in white top white bottom white heels?

2009-07-20T21:53:00.002+08:00

I want you!
I want to hear your voice.
I want your attention.
I want everything got to do with you!
But I doubt you even realise it!

Maths Problem 11

2009-07-17T22:14:00.004+08:00

Halizah and me, TWO of us finished what FIVE people supposed to do. I am so proud of myself. I am a well known slacker and I actually can do it! This is one of the biggest accomplishment I had made in life. Okay, you all probably saying this is nothing, thinking your probably able to do that as well. But I would appreciate if you keep this to yourself. It is seriously very tiring okay. It is like running 2.4km. Because I made use of my brain. How I wish I have Albert Einstien's brain but it is impossible:( My class is filled with childish people, no is guys. Thanks Ben and Jamus for hiding my slipper in the drawer and also changed my wallpaper.

happy birthday to me:)

2009-07-17T10:07:00.004+08:00

Fiona really freak out when she saw this!
Wahahahahaha!!
I know I am very bad.
I wanna thanks those who wished me happy birthday and happy belated birthday!
On top of that, I also wanna thanks those who never wish me happy birthday!
Thanks for letting me know you don't bother.
Hence, don't expect me to bother too.
I got a bra as a birthday present.
Thanks uh!
I wont forgot, I know you all are hinting to me.
No problem, your birthday I buy you all G-strings.
Translucent with laces!

Even though I am 17 already!
But I still reserve the right to be as happy as a kid:)

A Day Out

2009-07-12T00:05:00.003+08:00

Figure out yourself who is all them.

I am not in mood to say!

Tilt your head please and thank you!

Right follow by left:)

We are suppose to meet at 1130. You know how punctual can all of us be. Felly reached at 1130. Me and Fiona reached at 1200. (quite punctual okay!) Shortly after is Meiting follow by Leemay and Cynthia. Yueming arrived at 1230. Don't know who classified herself as loser. Late = loser huh! Hahahaha. We had KFC for lunch! Everyone of us except leemay and Fiona ate bandito:) Fiona ate zinger! Thia leemay we are suppose to have lunch together and you wen to have lunch with you mother. It defeat the purpose of our meeting. Aftermath, we proceeded to the toilet in century square and spent the next one hour or so there. You should know what we did there. Then leemay left for work. Her uniform is very funny. And we, I forgot what we did. Cut cut cut. After felly and fiona left for church, Meiting and Cynthia went home. Yueming and I went to hunt for soya bean as she wanna drink soya bean for a purpose. Mission failed! Ended up buying the yellow colour tea(i don't know how to spell). And a tragedy happened! Cheer up girl! Its okay. No worries okay:) People will change as they grow. Took bus 3 home! The End.

Exhausted

2009-07-10T21:51:00.003+08:00

Hi dumb dumb!
Had been very obsessed with this word.
School started a week or so and I am seriously very tired.
Having UT too.
And I screwed my science UT.
All the answers is based on my guessing.
Expert huh?!
Hais.
At last I figured out something.
If you work, you will be piss.
If you don't work, everyone seems okay to you.
Hence, don't work.
Waste time, waste effort.
Work or don't work get same grade:(
A short post:)
Miss me okay!
Someone birthday falls on 15 July:D
*hint

me

2009-06-29T02:36:00.003+08:00

Yes, I am a faker.
I do wear a mask.
But let me ask you.
Who doesn't?
I do behaviour differently.
But did I hurt anyone?

Yes, went e!hub and white sands with yueming!
We ran under the rain and ate cotton candy!
I dunno why all these made me happy.
On top of that, I bought a wedge.
My mom is going to scream at me!
Actually she did.
Yes, I know I have plenty of flats, heels, wedges and I don't wear them.
But I just cant resist the temptation of buying them.
At least I do take them out and appreciate them once in a blue moon.
I must stop buying all these.
I seriously need to get some clothes.
I always buy everything except clothes when I am shopping.
DUMB DUMB!
Okay, not because I don't want to buy.
But I seriously can't find anything that I fell in love with immediately after looking at it.
So fashion designer, please buck up!
Clothes nowadays are so similar.

I am craving for lots of foods.
Drats!
Am I pregnant?

Because I am super duper bored.
I took some facebook quiz:)
I like the result but I doubt it is true!

What's your best quality?
Loyalty: It may take some time for you to befriend with someone, but that doesn't mean that you are less approachable, just that you handpick friends who you believe have the qualities and values that you share. Once you are friends you would all you can to help them out if they ever need it. Because of your loyalty and generosity your tend to develop lasting and quality friendships.
[Maybe my friends can comment on this:)]

What kind of smile do you have?
Timid smile: You rarely let out hysteric stomach-hurting laughter around people you are not familiar with. You tend to be a bit more reserved at social settings, but you probably haven't noticed that your timid smile makes you more adorable and attractive.
[I think this is quite true!]

How Flirtable Are You?
You are 99% flirtable!
[I am a decent simple innocent naive girl! Trust me!!!]

How Sexy is your Name?
Uber Sexy!
[I know I am not sexy, I am glad that my name is:)]

Are you HOT, PRETTY or CUTE?
You Are Hot!: You are definitely a hottie! You know how to be the center of attention and find yourself in that position often.
[I have been praying and hoping for this to happen to me! But I doubt this day will ever come:(]

Is he/she Crushing you back?
Crushing Hard!
[The biggest problem here is I DO NOT HAVE A CRUSH!]

Why are you still single?
Too Care-Free: Don't be too laid back and send off wrong signals
[Huh? I don't get what you mean!]

Eh eh, I did not make up all these.
Don't believe go my facebook account and see.

Let me ask you all a question.
You rather be stalked by a stalker or be raped by a rapist?
If you are thinking about it, it is good as it is good to think.
But it is also DUMB.
I rather not get stalked and raped.
HAHAHA!

Okay let me ask you another question!
You would choose an ugly looking man with bad character but filthy rich or a good looking man with good character but poor.
Yes, I know you will be thinking I am going to present you a stupid answer or probably making fun of you again.
But just think about it ah!
Okay!
My answer : I would choose to be with the ugly looking man and pamper him like a king. So, it would be easier to cheat all his money. After cheating all his money, I would choose the good looking one and spend our lives happily together:)
Don't scold me.
I never say you cannot choose two times:P
I am so childish.

Time check : 3:20AM
GOODBYE!
I need to wake up at 7AM!

E learning

2009-06-27T00:14:00.002+08:00

Went to bedok library with xinyi, ben, felix.

This is the first time in years since I stepped inside national library.

Okay, forgot to take photos.

Three of them is very nice.

But also not very nice as well.

Hahaha:)

I find out something.

This is my secret.

I am not going to tell anyone.

Yes, I love lychee<3

I love foods.

I don't need to have a big group of friends.

All I need is a few real close friends!

FUCK IS THE ONLY WORD I CAN THINK OF NOW!

H1N1

2009-06-23T02:16:00.003+08:00

Hi people!
I get to enjoy holiday again as I got quarantine due to H1N1.

Never in my life I thought I would get involve in this.

I just got it.

Actually I am very happy I got quarantine.

Haha:)
Because that means HOLIDAY to me!
You people might not know this.
Going to school is a chore to me.
It takes me less than a second to adjust myself to holiday mode.
But it takes me forever to adjust myself to studying mode.
I am craving for durian, durian puff, durian pancake.
And thanks to Ben reminded fried durian as well.
And I have to wait till 22 September to satisfied my craving for sushi.
Thia Leemay, I shall wait!
Remember my home cooked meal as well.
Oh ya, I am a very random person as you can see.
I am trying to kick this randomness habit.
But is it a good thing or a bad thing to be random?
I think it is a bad thing.
Actually it is a good thing as well.
Okay, the truth is there is two sided to everything.
Hence, it is a good and bad thing.
Nevertheless, I seriously think gaming and sex is everything to a male.
Their life revolve around this two things.
But I always believe there is an exception.
I am waiting for that exception to pop by.
Now, I know my blog have much more reader than I thought.
I Y every single one of you!

Republic Polytechnic

2009-06-18T22:11:00.002+08:00

Yueming and Fiona came to my school to find me:)

They travelled all the way to Woodlands.

Firstly, they took bus to Tampines.

Then took 969 to woodlands bus interchange.

And climbed two bridge before arriving. (because they are too intelligent)

Two cute girls.

Then somehow Kaye is also at RP:)

So we get down to business after meeting.

Cam-whoring!

After finishing my RJ with the help of these two cuties.

We went to AMK!

Ate at food court.

Then walk around!

But I seriously enjoyed the time I spent with them.

Even though we didnt do much thing together but it is memorable.

I miss those times in secondary school.

Yes, I prefers poly life to secondary!

But I love my secondary school friends:)

Miss me more!!!

I will miss you all too<3

happy day

2009-06-13T02:18:00.007+08:00

BUGIS!!!!!!

BANANA ATTACK!!!

Thai Express!!!

YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY!

You all should try!

ME and MEITING:)

In the process of muffin making.

And you can see my fat tummy in the photo!!!!!

Yueming our marshmallow cutter and stunt woman.

I had a good laugh see her pinching the marshmallow.

Thanks to meiting, she don't need to pinch marshmallow anymore!

ME and yueming waiting for the muffin to be baked!

AND

ALL THESE MADE A

.
.

HAPPY XYLIA

Healthy

2009-06-09T01:14:00.003+08:00

Hi guys!

Yesterday I went to East Coast Park For cycling with my classmate.

And today my butt and my thighs hurts.

Today I went to play badminton with leemay yueming and meiting.

Now my arm also hurts.

This proves I don't exercise.

I want a pretty face and a perfect body!!

I seriously don't get it.

2009-06-07T03:03:00.005+08:00

Why is everyone saying fairness/equality when there is no sure thing as fairness/equality in this world?
Why form this lie to deceive everyone including yourself or influence the younger generation?
Why make everyone bear this hope when it will only lead to disappointment?

Hi people!
I came to realise that everything is stupid in this world.
YES!
That includes me and you.
Accept the fact.
You do so much, achieved so much but at the end of the day what you get in return is death.
Nothing else.
But can we just laze around and do nothing for our whole life?
Cannot.
Why?
Because everything in the world is stupid.
Dumb Dumb!

DOWNTOWN EAST!

2009-06-03T19:17:00.002+08:00

Hello readers:)

Once again I am here to blog.

Met Yueming for lunch at subway eat fresh!

Later when to The Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf met Hazel.

Yueming being a very very good girl, she studied for her upcoming test.

As for me, I being a very very good friend, I accompanied her:)

On top of that, we teamed up on word challenge & broke my record!

Whoooo.

Now now, we got to be good good girls and have to report home.

BYE:)

MISS ME!

desire

2009-05-31T22:50:00.001+08:00

I AM SO JEALOUS AND ENVIOUS!

UNLUCKY ME!

2009-05-31T14:26:00.004+08:00

I met a female werewolf.

I somehow managed to snap two photos.

Before and After.

2009-05-29T20:17:00.002+08:00

2 weeks break started:)
I know I wont miss waking up early, travelling to and fro, problem statement, presentation.
I think I might miss my classmate.
Took class photo today.
But I haven't get the photo yet.
Anyway I don't want to publish them.
Because I know some of you out there will comment on how my class guys look like.
And I predict nothing good will come out from their mouth.
So, I am being nice here.
Okay, so now I have 2 weeks break.
Who wants me come and book me okay:)
I want to go shopping.
The one and only problem is I AM BROKE.
Soon I might declare bankruptcy.
I want a job.
So will have money.
I find humans very cute.
When the weather is hot, we complain hot.
When it is cold, we complain cold.
When we are single, we want to be attach.
When we are attach, we say it is better to be single.
When we have happiness, we take for granted.
When happiness is gone, we blame everything for not experiencing happiness.
etc.
You all know what I mean.
Okay.
I sure end my post here.
I am so tired afer a long taxing day.

2009-05-27T19:49:00.002+08:00

I am exhausted.
Don't feel like attending school.
I need counselling.
I think I do take note of my boyfriend appearance.
Or in fact I matters it a lot.
I know you will tell me looks isn't important or looks isn't everything.
I think a lot of people out there will be scolding me.
I thought i am not a materialistic person, but i am wrong about it.
I believe everyone in this world is materialistic.
Oh ya.
I figure out something.
At last, I understood why adults always ask us not to get into relationship at this age.
As I did mention this in my previous post, I decided to share with your here.
Adults did not want us to get into relationship at this age because they think we could flirt around and not get serious.
I know you will ask me they where got say.
Of course, they never say la.
How is it possible they say Ah girl/Ah boy you should go flirt and not have a steady bf/gf.
I know you will be curious about everything and you wanna get to know opposite sex better.
By flirting you can get to know them better.
Getting into a relationship, you can experiment everything with only one person.
But if you choose to flirt, you can get to know/experiment with different type/kind/style of people.
It is like math, the more you practice the better you get.
Its the same here, the more you expose to the more you know and understand about opposite sex.
You know what opposite wants/likes. (mentally/physically)
You also will know what type/kind/style of person suits you better.
And once you hit 20++ years old.
Your parent will ask you settle down, stop flirting.
Now you know everything,
You can find a partner that is suitable for you and you also know how to make them love you.
So listen to your parent, they are right about it.
Make sense huh!
You can agree with this, you can also disagree with this.
But you don't have to follow this.
This all is based on my own opinion.
If you parent disagree, I also don't know ah.
As different people have different thinking.

2009-05-24T16:52:00.002+08:00

YEAH:)
My tagboard is alive.
Not Dead anymore.

Reply to tags:
To Mdm Thia Leemay: erm what? Yes i know i am lame:)
To Carmen: Lets meet up one day and off we swing in the sky:)
To ah ting: Link me:) okay? haha
To bibi: Haha. Did you laugh until your stomach pain? Extreme swing!!!!
To fiona: Okay meet up soon!! And something happened to your clothes..

Anyone got job to recommend me?

good times

2009-05-23T00:21:00.003+08:00

I am so tired!!
UT cancelled:)
After countless of weeks, I finally meet yueming leemay meiting.
I seriously miss those time.
Went to 'celebrate' panzi birthday at townpark.
Townpark stinks to heaven.
And with the combination of durian, it smells like fart or worse than that.
Took bus 17 home with yueming.
When I was walking home.
I met a pervert!!
So disgusting looking.
He banged me and asked me to be his friend.
Then i say i dont want.
Then he say he is very good on bed.
Prove it then!
Go fuck the bushes and make them cry in pleasure.
Luckily my neighbour came to my recuse.
And nowadays, I kept feeling that people are staring at me.
I am dead sure that i am not paranoid.
It is true!!!
Finally, I find out the solution to make people stop staring at you.
The solution is when they stare at you.
You just look at them and smile.
They will turn away and never stare at you again.
I think i can guarantee you this works.
And leemay got piss got with two jc guys at pizza hut.
All because they keep staring at us.
Leemay no point getting piss because of this:)
I am getting more and more random.
As you can see for yourself.
I cant wait to change class.
Not because i dont like the class i am in now.
It is because ....(i dont want anyone to throw rotten eggs at me)
Actually my class is quite nice la.
I need money money money money money!
You know why.
Because money makes the world goes round.
So now you know.
You want money?
Haha.
I am super bored now and tired too.
But i cant sleep.
Insomnia likes me a lot, you see.
Dont get jealous!
I just realise that all my friends are so cute.
I just realise that all girls are pretty.
I realise years back male are childish no matter they are in what age.
Is this post too long?
Too bad you already read.
If you find it too long then why you still read it.
After reading it, what can you do?
Haha.
There is nothing you can do.
I just realise that the post is not really very long.
I am seriously very bored.
Oh ya, I have got something to share with you.
Now, at last i truly understood why adult told us not to get attach so quickly.
You wanna know why.
Come and ask me.
I will explain elaborate it to you.
Confirm you will agree with me.
I wanna get rid of fats.
Have been eating too much recently.
Because of school.
I am sick and tired of laptop already.
Not like before.
Everyday, hope i can lay my fingers on the laptop.
Now, hoping that my laptop break down so i can dont touch it.
Night at the museum 2 is a nice movie:)
Watched it with Uma darling.
The more you eat the more you shit.
The more you learn the more you bullshit.
I think i has been learning too much.
Can i stop school already?
I cant present well.
I dunno why.
Maybe after 3 years in RP.
I may become an expert in crapping during presentation.
Ladies gentlemen boys and girls.
I shall end my post here.
BYE and GOOD NIGHT.
I LOVE YOU!
MUACKS<3

W15R

2009-05-17T00:41:00.003+08:00

Okay let me introduce you my classmates:)

- xinyi - nicolette - daphne - fauzi - eugene - fahmi - ben - khai - johari - victor - atikah - felix - jayne - xiaohe - ph - taqiah - Michelle
- halizah - darma
- yang shu - feng quan - liam - shaly

Okay so now you know their names.
So now you going to ask me about them right.
Okay i think they are nice people.
Now you going to ask me whether is my class fun.
I think i cant blend with them for certain unknown reason.
Okay now you know more about my class.
Now do up a PDT follow by a PPT and RJ.
Please submit them by 1159pm.