beyond my touch

I am not a greedy person.
All I ask for is just one chance.
What on earth did I do?
Why don't you ever let me experience it for once.
Life is just so not fair.
I tried my best.
My efforts are not rewarded.
You tell me I don't deserve it.
I believes there are millions and billions others don't even give a hook care but they got it.
I know you all going to say the emo side of me is back.
But do you all know how much I am suffering right here.
I have been suppressing all these.
Beginning happy have never been me.
I yearn for more.
The more I smile the more my heart cry.
The more I laugh the more my heart bleed.