Past makes present

Often in life, we're given a chance to choose. One wrong steps leads to dire consequences that screwed up your life. You got no choice but to get your life back on track despite the oncoming uncertainty and doubts. You get encouragement and criticism from onlookers not bothering whether you needs it or not. Family, friends by your side. Yes, always only being by your side and not you. No one would know exactly how you feel even though they had been through. After all, each and everyone of us are unique individual. We just got to face it and learn how to do things right in our own unique way. Once things are done, you're back to normal. A new, much better person than before. Things that don't kill you make you stronger. The 'wrong' before resulted in the 'right' now. The changes in you through the progress isn't someone you thought you are? You didn't want to be someone like that? Now, you complicated things, have doubts in everything, distrust of people, selfish, too rational? You never dare to take any risks to follow your dreams? Being glad as long as life stays this way?

My life made me changed and I really dislike me.