Don't start

There are always things you never want anyone to know. Your darkest secret. And sometimes you have to lie in order to avoid exposing them to people. One lie leads to another and before you know it, you've told thousands. Soon, you become so good at it, it's habitual. It became a bad habit that's hard to break. You want it to stop but you can't. It seems like it had a mind of its own. You had feed it long enough for it to grow and mature and it spun out of control. Now, you try to seize back the control but it occurs as a preposterous attempt as you realised that it has already became part of you and your identity. You do not know where to start. You're afraid of losing your identity. You feel vulnerable. You lose your comfort and your only knowledge of way of communication. You feel at lost when questions is posted to you. You evade the questions and shun from the attention, desperate for a way out. You feel trapped in the maze you thought you knew too well only to find yourself not knowing the way out.